Our family is on the move....7 more weeks until 3 Hst's become 4.
I'm struck by the number of emotions I feel regarding this change. The emotions that I've experienced lately are all over the place from joy & excitement to anxiety & fear and even sadness & depression. I'm so excited to meet my little man. I can't wait to see who he looks like and acts like. Will he be another mini me or will he be Brian in a little package? Will he be as loving as Isabell and will he light up a room with his smile the way that she does? Will he be outgoing or shy, exploratory or reserved? How am I going to manage him and her alone? How in the world will we ever afford all the things they'll need? How will I handle missing my time with her? Is there room in my heart to love him as much as I love her? Like I said...all over the place!
I know that I am not the first one to tread these waters and I won't be the last but my heart is overwhelmed at the realization of the how deeply the change could and will affect us. I pray for God's guidance and grace. I pray that He gives me strength to deal with the emotions and not let them deal with me. I pray for a healthy happy baby boy who always knows he is loved and has a God given purpose. I pray for a bond between siblings like we've never experienced on either side of the family.
Pray for us as we count down and walk through the different emotions of growing from 3 Hst's to 4. It's actually harder than I thought.
Love,
Jessica
